SNOW!!

This is what I woke up to yesturday morning! I do love the snow but it can stop now!The tree outside my sliding glass door.

This is what I came home to last night a leak in my hallway.

This is after they cut it open to let the water out.

And this is this morning after it has leaked all night.

I am just happy that none of my thing have been damaged by the water and I happy that I have Renters Insurance (hehehe).

Santa!!

Santa stopped in the office and gave us a gift for being

good this year. Merry Christmas!!

O Christmas Tree

I thought I should share a few photos of my

Christmas Tree and my appartment.

Learning about ME

So with each day that passes I am learning a little more about ME. I am learning that I am a strong person that can do what ever I set my mind to (it may not happen today but it will happen). I am learning that the core of who I am has not changed being married, I just don't have the added role of being a wife. Therapy is helping me work though some of the issues that I have but really for the most part I am truly OK with what is happening in my life right now. I am learning how to move on without Corey even though it is hard I am learning a lot about ME and about my Family and Friends and how much they love and support me.

So any ideas of what I should start as a Christmas Tradition for ME as a single person? This is one of my homework assignments and right now I have NO ideas on what to do, so I am asking for your ideas. I have decorated my apartment and have my tree up, I have to say it's really nice to come home and turn on the Christmas Tree and enjoy the lights.

I am Me and I am Okay!

I wanted to share this with you all I saw it in an office last week and thought I should share it with you all.

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.”

Virginia Satir quote

Just a little something!

So I have been doing a lot of thinking here lately (wouldn't know why) but I have come up with my WORD for 2009. Yep it is that time of year where we pick a word that will guide us through the year. Mine for 2008 was SUCCESS so I asked the question did or have I had success in 2008 and I have to say YES I did. I have surceased in my weight loss goals and have been able to keep the weight off. I have been excepted onto Advisory Counsel for American Cancer Society's Relay For Life and I have become a stronger women. There are other little things that I have had success at this past year as well and I am totally happy with all of them.

So my word of Encouragement for 2009 is HOPE!!! There is HOPE for me and where my life is going and the new path that I am traveling down with my family and friends at my side. I am hoping that all will be okay for me and for Corey even without each other in our lives. Even with all that is going on there is a silver lining around the cloud that I am on at this moment. Things are so different and so new for me but I am making it on my own and creating my own path that will take me to the where I want to be by the end of 2009. Will post my goals for 2009 at a later time.

This was emailed to me and I thought I should pass it on!!

"How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant of the weak & the strong; because, someday in life you will have been all of these".

Thank You for all the comments and words of encouragement that you have left me. Hugs to you all.

My Apartment

Here are the photos that I promised you. This is my living room before moving in.

And after. Love having the vaulted ceilings it makes it feel so much bigger.

My bedroom after

bedroom before

bathroom after

bathroom before

I am happy in my little place it is totally me and yes it is clean. For those of you who know me it is very clean nothing out of place :) Still trying to find room for all the scrapbook stuff that I have. I am putting most of it in the pantry in the kitchen and I will be putting up some shelving in there to keep all my mini albums for display.

Started counseling today and it went really well I know this will help me out with the feeling that I have about this and it will help me move on to be where and who I want to be.

Thank you for all the comments and words of encouragement that you all have given me it means so much to me that you are here for me THANK YOU!!

Deep Breath!!!

Okay so a few of you know that I have been going through a very very ruff path in my life right now. So here is what's going on in my life, Corey and I have split up and we are filing for divorce. I know this is a BIG shock to alot of you out there but things have happened that can not be taken back and we feel it is best for the both of us to end the marriage. I have moved out and am now living in an apartment here in Hermiston. I will have some photo's for you on my next post. It's a cute little 600 square foot one bedroom apartment on the second floor. I have a great view of the city and it's my new home for at least the next year. I am holding my head up and taking on day at a time and not letting this beat me down. Yes there are moments that I am hurt, mad, sad and can't stop crying but for the most part I am moving on. I am trying to find myself and become a person that I need to be to move forward. I have to say at the moment I really don't like living by myself I went from my parent's and to Corey and we have been married for the last 15 years I have never had to live on my own a BIG change for this girl. But I know this will only make me a stronger women and with my family and friends supporting me I will make it.

I have to say Thank You to my 3 BFF's your the best and thanks to Cindy for letting me go to Church with you. It's been uplifting to know that there is Hope and Forgiveness for me.

I do have a new email address @ theskinnygirlinme@gmail.com