My Baptizm

I was Baptized on Easter Sunday April 12th, 2009. Thank you to my family and friends that shared this special day with me. I love you!!

Pink!!

This is my new Pink Laptop!! I love it!! I am so excited to start playing with it and learning Vista. I needed to have a laptop with my Advisory Council spot with ACS.

A million pieces

So can a heart that is in a million pieces be put back together to love again? This is a question that has been on my mind for the last few months and more so in the last few days. I am struggling right now with the fact that I still love Corey with all my heart. Today I feel that I have been rejected again by a man that loves me. This has to be the last rejection I am not able to take anymore I am already hurting so much then to add one more thing, one more rejection I just don't know how to recover. Everyone says that I will be okay that this will all work out for the best and I will become a stronger person for going through this experience. But right now I feel that I will never recover that I am going to be living with this guilt and regret for the rest of my life. But that being said I am NOT 100% at fault this is a 50/50 deal, he is just as much at fault as I am. But what hurts the most and kills me inside is that he didn't fight for me for us and that truly hurts and breaks my heart. I gave this man heart, love, friendship and me and I wasn't good enough for him. I did something that hurt him that he will never forget but he could have stopped me but he couldn't, he couldn't love me the way that I needed to be loved. I am sorry for the hurt and the pain that I have caused him and I just hope he feels the same way.