Feelings!

I am a bit of a mess at this moment and wish I could express my feeling and what is truly going on in my life but there is another party involved that I don't want to hurt any more then I already have. So what is my life lesson that I am to be learning here? I keep wondering and asking for gaudiness and he is giving it to me but just not in a way that I fully understand at this time. I am so thankful for my family and friends right now they are truly my life line right now. THANK YOU Cindy, Amy, and Carrie for being here for me, your truly the best. I am also very thankful for my therapist at the moment she has helped me move forward and make me deal with things that I have not wanted to deal with. It's amazing how you can open up to someone who you don't know at all and tell them your life story and the mess that your life has become. I guess it's because you know inside they are not going to judge you for what has accrued and will help you get back on to the path of life that you want to be on.